When I jumped back into work in December this project had changed.
If you aren’t familiar with the little hiccup in my project you can read my November review which outlines my hospital stay and the struggles I had towards the end of that month. I spent almost a week in the hospital before I spent more time recovering at home. I had to take a pause and look at this project. Had I failed? I had missed multiple days of creating and posting images on Instagram. That a huge part of the original project. As I got home I had a lot to process.
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I was a mess. I had a machine attached to my body that I had to lug with me everywhere, I was groggy and nauseous from medication, I had a hard time walking. Worst of all I had lost all of the routines that I had in place in my life. Not only did my project seem daunting. Every day life somehow seemed daunting. Normally, I’m not too impressed with myself (and I’m still not) but at the time I looked back and thought : “How in the heck do I do it all?!” It was honestly a very tough thing to process. It was downright depressing. I definitely had moments where I felt like a failure and I felt robbed of the accomplishment of a project where I could say “yes, I did it: I did it every damn day.” I had to accept that – but I am also not one to accept defeat. I had put so much work into this project and I wasn’t going to let this hold me down. The project simply transformed. Yes I was going to create 365 images for this project in 365 days. Yes I was going to post each one on Instagram. Actually -after my hiatus I would need to be making and posting MORE than one image every day until the end of the year.
I finally felt up to jumping back into this project on December 11th. I was 17 days behind and would need to create and post around 40 images in 20 days. I was nervous about the act of creating. I still didn’t feel like myself! Once I started that quickly changed. I dove in, I recovered, the holidays passed, and as I posted that last image on December 31st I felt a totally different sense of accomplishment and relief! Though I was far from confident in a few of the images I finished strong. There’s something about that last image that might make it my favorite of all. I think I’ll be keeping it as a little memento from this journey!
This project overall was a great experience and a wild whirlwind. These last two months were an exercise in perspective. I’m grateful for so many things in my life and I feel so very lucky to be able to do what I do. I’m grateful that I have both the opportunity and the drive to make my art, and for my courage to share it with others. Thank you for following along, and for your support. It really means the world to me.
I’ve spent the first few weeks of 2018 tying up loose ends and preparing for new projects this year. Stay tuned for more information about where to see this project up close and personal later this year! Also – more projects, bigger work, collaborations! I may be not working on a project where I share with you daily, but there will definitely be more interesting things to come!
As for now – Every original image that is still available from this project is now listed on Etsy!! I’ll need to raise the prices soon so take advantage and grab your favorite pieces while you can!